the pickup

ok so we’ll switch it up. We’ll go a little bit naughty this time. True story. I was working at BJ’s Wholesale Club(pausing while you get the laughing out of your systems cuz of the name…….looking at watch, ok comeon now people compose yourselves so I can continue… whistling the jeopardy theme song…ok may I? lol) part time quite a few years ago. And this is when I started coming out of my shell. Do I tell you about my exploits with co-workers, or picking up a girl one night. All are equally as good. We’ll go with picking up the girl.

Ok so a few of the guys from work, went out to the club. Some of their girlfriends showed up for a bit which was totally cool, and I ran into a group of girls I knew totally randomly. So the night is off to a great start. I’m a flirty person, some of it just playful some of it serious, and my friend kristen knew this, and so she starts busting my balls and asks me if I saw anything that caught my eye. At that point I had to respond, “no nothing has caugh………wait someone just did” then someone bumped into me. I had to turn and see what the hell, so I lost eye contact. It was my friend kevin who was stumbling drunk. I was like “dude! I just had my eye on a girl and you made me lose her” Drunkenly he yells GOOOOOO!!!!!!! FIND HER!!!!!!!!! It was so funny I still remember exactly the pitch tone and sound of how he yelled that lololol.

I really wasn’t planning on the night to unfold how it had. I had no atm card, and $30 to my name and enough gas to get home. I had fun pregaming, so I didn’t have to spend a lot when I went out. (this is pre dui btw).

Anyway I start to meander around the bar looking for this girl. In a dark club I noticed her eyes and that was what immediatley sparked my interest. Everything after I had seen her eyes, um yeah WOW! about 5’5” long curly brown hair, hazel eyes, and a body type im a sucker for. someone I would never have imagined I would ever have a chance with. I go to the other side of the club where the pool tables are and HOLY SHIT! There she is at the bar BY HERSELF. All nervous im like wtfwtfwtfwtf…..BOTH the angel and the lil devil on my shoulder were yelling at me to not be a pussy. The devil poked me in the ass with his pitchfork and the angel carried me and flew me over now I really gotta do something. So I kinda stammered and said “hi, im scott. I saw you earlier and you caught my eye. I wanted to see if I could buy you a drink before but someone bumped into me and when I turned back you were gone” “hi scott im tammy” she responds. AWESOME she acknowledged me! So i said to her “what are you drinking tonight? We’re both here at the bar and already have a fresh drink so I guess that blows my chances on that.” She turns towards me and tells me she’s drinking a long island. I asked her “how are they here, ive never had one from here before. I do love long islands tho.” She looks at me and smiles and tells me to take a sip. I do, and then I order one. We end up going and sitting down, we’re both feeling really good lol.

Now here we are sitting at the table and I’m looking at this girl in total amazement that I am actually talking to her and we’re having a great time. Another girl comes over and ends up sitting down and talking to her, it turns out to be her friend checking up on her. First thing she asks is if shes ok and who I am. Tammy tells her shes fine and says this is scott I just met him. I turn my attention toward her friend and introduce myself. (this just as im getting ready to ask her for her number) I said “hi I’m scott, I came down with a few of my friends, and saw your friend here and thought id say hi and introduce myself.” So she asks about me, felt like I was being interrogated but, it was all good I respect her for looking out for her friend. She says “ok you seem really cool, you can still talk to my friend” hmmm I got the friends approval. So I said “I was just about ready to ask tammy for her number I’ll be honest. But you came along and you really seem to care about her and shes really drunk. Do you mind if I get her number? If not its totally cool.” She talks to tammy, and I get the number. SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!!! Her friend goes off to find some people, and tammy asks me to dance.

We go to the dance floor and start really dancing. Grinding touching fondling. Then she says to me. “what would you do if I kissed you.” Devil and angel are like OH NO SHE DI’INT …me being me I say “shit ima kiss you back!” dancing a little more, her ass grinding on my crotch I lean into her ear and say “ok my turn. What would you do if I kissed you.” “kiss me and find out” she said…….devil on my shoulder knocked out the angel so I turned her around and we were making out on the dance floor. We got so lost in each other next thing I know the lights are on. Looking around none of my friends are to be found theyre gone lol. At the end of the night there was a girl selling roses in the club so I bought one and gave it to tammy, told her my friends are gone, and asked if she minded if I walked her to her car with her friends. She says theyre going to foxwoods and asked if I wanted to go. SHIT remember earlier I only had $30 no atm card and enough gas to get home YIKES! Me being an idiot said SURE! Thinking I could make it there and back home. Halfway there I fess up to her and tell her I don’t have enough gas to make it, and my predicament. She tells me not to worry about it shell call her friends and tell her she cant go. So turn around we go I find out where she lives aye carumba. No way am I making it. Fuckfuckfuck!

Now im shittin my pants worrying. Were holding hands and I said to her “I know we just met but can you either let me borrow $5 and ill pay you back tomorrow or we go to my house just so I can get my atm card then ill bring you home.” What she says next OMG…. “welllll I can always just stay at your house right?” wowowowow im thinking, she just invited herself over! Mind you I also have to work at 9am so what do I do? We get back to my house and I call out! Haha

We get in my room and start kissing, lay in the bed and start to fool around a little bit. FUCKME WAS I HORNY! I reached for the button on her jeans, and she stops me. No I can’t, im not feeling to good. (dieing sound of super mario from super mario brothers echos thru my head) but I respect her, tell her no problem, ill go sleep on the futon if you wanna stay in the bed, its more comfy than the futon. She tells me no she wants me to hold her.
Haha not the ending you were expecting was it? While nothing transpired sexually that night we did go on to be friends and saw each other for awhile, but sadly life makes things change sometimes, and we drifted a apart. They say people come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Obviously it wasn’t for a lifetime. But I wonder, was it for a reason? Or a season?

about me part 1

HMMMMMM......OK so this "about me" blog, yeahp tougher than I thought lol.i'm kinda stumped as to how and where to begin. do i list out a timeline of things that have happened and made me who i am or do i just wing it and figure it out as i go?



ok looks like i'm just winging it as i go, which is good cuz a lot of the times i'm fly by the seat of my pantsish and spontaneous. other times i do like to have a plan set out. i have a few personal quotes i've made that represent me the best. there's the saying "he or she marches to the beat of a different drummer." to state that someone is different than the norm,but in essence that also kinda means that somehow, someway they are also the same as someone else, no? well my first quote: "i don't march to the beat of a different drummer. i beat up the drummer boy stole the drums and now i'm my OWN drummer". i feel that describes me very well, as there are many different sides to me and i don't think i fall into any one particular type of category.



now that,that has been established, let's go on to the "about me" part. you see a guy who shaves his head and has a long goattee and tats (granted i only have four and i'm not covered in them but still) and what is the first thing that comes to mind? i have a scorpion with a red circle (sun maybe idk what the heck its supposed to be i just thought it was cool and i'm a scorpio) i had 2 people think the tat was because i was in a gang! ok so we have people out there who do judge by the cover but there are people who don't judge a book by its cover. however stereotypically what does one think? sometimes we start forming images of someone based on looks: like what type of person they are, what kind of music they like, how they treat people etc.



a little more about me, we'll start with clothing style. a lot of times people will get caught up in dressing in one particular style of clothing.not me, i wear what i like regardless of what style it belongs to and i have NOTHING wrong with people who do only dress in one style. if that's what you like it's what you like, who am i to judge? most of you on twitter see how i normally dress(t-shirt and jeans, boots, bandana or winter hat depending on the weather) i also love hats (STILL trying to find a Toronto Raptors hat btw ;) hehe)and i have a decent collection of jereys (baseball football basketball etc) . i also have nice dress shirts and nice dressy clothes as well. again i buy what i like and what i think is cool regardless of what "style" it belongs to. sadly too many of us judge others based solely on appearance. i worked at citizen's bank in a call center and had to dress nice and take the bus everyday. how people reacted to me when riding the bus dressed for work all fancy, and when i wore day to day wear tshirt, or hoodie, hat and jeans was astounding. i have an example from just the other day. i was wearing a nice plain hoodie from old navy and a pair of nice jeans, well kept boots, and a black winter hat. i was out for a walk leaving my neighborhood , when an older lady (im guessing in her 60'sish) is walking down the street on my side. i would say we were maybe about 4 phone poles apart when i saw her clutch her purse pick up her pace and cross the street still clutching it as she continued past me on the otherside of the street. i understand being cautious in today's world, but how does that make me feel? what would you have done had you not known me? this next example isn't about me but what happened in the news in 1 town over from me. nice well off town had 9 high school kids arrested for making homemade soda bottle bombs. 1 blew up a mailbox, and another was placed under someones car. to look at these kids pictures in the paper, you wouldn't expect something like that from them based on how they are dressed.what if i dressed "preppy", or "businesslike". how about "sporty" or "rocky". what if i was wearing ripped raggedy & dirty jeans? to not know me what would you think? would you classify me into the sterotypical category for each? i try not to judge or categorize based upon how someone is dressed, because how you dress doesn't necessarily have to reflect how you are as a person.



noooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwww do i move on to personality, likes, dislikes, or interests next hmmmmmm.......welllll i'm off to ponder, so i'll leave you with this as part 1......hope you like it so far :)

deep thoughts

recently i've had someone truly special come in to my life. her name is deme, she has enlightened me and had a tremendous impact in my life. and i could not be more grateful and appreciative. i love you. introducing me to having a sixth sense about seeing things in people that others may not or just will not see. a lot of past things i have encountered ties together and holds this true. some of the events in previous blogs make me truly believe this. she is an incredibly beautiful person inside and out and i am honoured to have her in my life. given me the ability to look at things in a new light, an awakening, an enlightenment, whatever you want to call it, it has truly affected me in a positive way. this ties in to my next part. as some of my twitter friends are aware i just lost a great friend. she was an incredible person with a heart of gold. she had overcome a lot in life, left a mentally and physically abusive husband, and had a great 10yr old little girl. her smile would brighten any room. sadly she had gotten sick a few months ago. this turned into a case of swine flu, and it struck her bad.. she suffered a collapsed lung, among other medical issues. her sister whom i had never met informed me when she first found out the news of the extent of her illness. Her battle and struggle had consumed her for about 3 months. During the time when the illness ran its course, she was medically induced into a coma for 10days, multiple tubes and machines hooked up to her and she also suffered a collapsed lung, among other medical issues.. Is this quality life? Not exactly, but it was her final journey in the here and now, it’s unfortunate she had to go thru it being such a great person. Why? We’ll probably never know why it happened other than her time in the flesh was up, yet her soul is now at peace and continuing on its journey. She had fought for about a week after the doctors had announced they had done all that they could do, and the decision was made to remove her from the machines that aided her struggle.

Of course I’m still saddened by this passing, however I am at peace with the situation knowing she is better off. I was on her facebook page to leave a posting last night, and I broke down into tears. I was amazed at all the people’s lives she had touched the way she did. I’m better for knowing her as she helped me to enjoy what we may take for granted on a daily basis. While she was here before she was sick I gave her a tour of the area for a couple of days and I was able to step back and appreciate the daily things even more, being able to see things I take forgranted thru new eyes. Maybe that was her final calling? To make me open up and appreciate the daily things that much more?

I realize she had been suffering for quite some time battling the swine flu, and is better off her soul is at peace. When I got the news I immediately lost it and messaged my friend I had mentioned earlier in the blog. I may have lost focus for a bit but, she helped me to regain the focus of what I already had known. That while yes my friend may have passed and its tragic, her body is at peace and her soul has moved on to its next journey. I may have lost a friend in the flesh, but I have gained an angel………rest in peace Christina