what do i value?

in a world where it seems that there is negativity everywhere you look on the news, i value something that can be very tough to find. think about it.....how many positive and inspiring stories in the paper and on the news do you see? the next time you turn on the news remember what i just asked,and you'll see. very rarely do you see something inspiring or positive. you see crime, war, poverty, poor economy, homelessness. why does it seem that we are so drawn to negativity? to me negativity is a cancer. it spreads and spreads and eats away at its surroundings.

perfect example is a coworker of mine. from the time he gets in til the time he leaves 90% of the time he is complaining and being negative. that leads to more negativity in the department. i will fully admit that it is very tough to stay positive at work sometimes because of this. i have backup to get me thru the tough days where i feel the claws of negativity scratching at my back and trying to take hold of me and drag me down.

its partly because of some of the things i have gone thru in life. from my accident on 2004, and almost not being here, and then hitting rock bottom in 2007 and almost not being here(yes i was VERY close to...) i feel like i am the phoenix that has risen from the ashes to become something greater.

its also because i have some wonderful friends. i look back at how many incredible people i have met since these two previous close calls. now i know why i survived these two incidents. my work here is not done. i still have people to meet and i still have lives to make an impact on.

i would like to think that i have been an influence on people. i would also like to think that i have made a difference in my friends lives, especially those who have made a major difference in my life.

so you may ask what i value since i didn't say it outright. it's between the lines. i value positivity, friendship, and making a difference. (wow i'm tearing up at the moment knowing what my closing line is going to be......those of you on twitter know i can be naughty, and also have a very deep side. those of you who i have confided in also know that i am an emotional person as well)

when my time should come and i no longer walk the earth, no matter when in life it may be. today, tomorrow, 50 years from now. know this: i may not be here in the flesh, or a text, tweet, or phone call away. i will still have the 3 things i value the most and i have moved on to bigger work, making more of a difference:


I AM NOW YOUR ANGEL